Cassandra wept bitterly as Jan walked away. He had been the only physical source of love she ever knew. She thought of the moments they had spent together,the holidays they had made together and the affection they had both shared. This all hurt so much and Cassandra felt her feet give way as she watched,Jan"s car disappear.
Jan had claimed that he had no more feelings for her. Cassandra thought of how her own father had mistreated her when her mother had passed away. She was only 6 years of age then. She had missed her mother terribly. Many times she had wished that her mother would come back but she never did. At school she had been so shy and made very few friends who she wasn"t so open with. Cassandra couldn"t really say that she had any close friend. For some strange reasons,all seemed to ignore her existence. Cassandra wasn"t ugly- no she was not.She was a rare beauty with large brown eyes,a head full of lustrous and long locks of fine blonde hair,a slender figure. At first glance,anyone would have mistaken Cassandra for a cover model. She was simply gorgeous but love had always seemed to flee from her.
Cassandra thought of how her step-mum had always rained abuses on her. She had never seemed to appreciate anything Cassandra did. Cassandra"s father had never seemed to help matters. He had joined his wife in mistreating this girl. Cassandra had wondered if he was truly her biological dad. Cassandra felt so empty and many were the times she had wondered who she really was. She seemed to be rejected everywhere she went for no apparent reason.
The night Jan left, Cassandra cried herself to sleep. She had so many questions to ask but she knew not who to ask. She remembered her mother singing Christmas carols with so much grace. She recalled how her mummy had taken her to Sunday school from time to time. She had learned a lot about God and a few Bible characters like Noah, Abraham, Joseph, David,Mary and Paul. She managed to whisper a few words to God before she dozed off. "Dear God of Abraham, if you claim to love me tell me why the world loathes me. I kindly ask in Jesus name."
A bright light which seemed brighter than a thousand summer noon-days was approaching from the eastern horizon. Cassandra looked in awe as it grew bigger and bigger approaching her. She felt great peace and love that she could not describe. Then as the light came very close to her,she saw the most beautiful feet in a pair of golden sandals-pure gold. She couldn"t see the face for a very bright light emanating from the face hindered her. Then a man"s voice spoke-the best she had ever heard." Cassandra,your name! Change your name! Read
1 Chronicles 4:10." Cassandra woke up with a start. How she had wished it wasn"t a dream. She opened her Bible which she hardly read on the verse she had been told to read. It was about Jabez whose name had meant pain. He had prayed to God to take away the pain from his name. Cassandra now understood that her name which meant "the ignored one" had been the cause of her misery. She was done with it and in all her documents, she now bears the name Esther. Watch out beloved. Do you know what your name means? This is real!